Sometimes I think I was born to be a sucker along life's way
made as a big mistake...
So many things I don't understand in myself
so I can't expect it from anyone else.
Sometimes I feel like a lost child again
lost in a lonely dark world without friends.
It's impossible for one person to keep me happy all the time
my moods take an up, and down hill climb.
I'm 2 people locked inside
only 1 can really survive.
I want to always feel complete,
but that won't happen so I feel defeat.
My soul is searching, and my mind is repeating the past
I thought these memories were broken at last.
Why do I need someone to talk to every hour of the day?
I'm the one with the problem they shouldn't have to pay.
Sometimes I feel like a burden to my friend
always trying to pick up the pieces to make me happy again.
My husband working and everything as it should be
except me silently being a selfish baby.
I don't know how to finish healing with certain things still in the way
I'm trying... It's an on going battle I'm not going to win today.
So emotionally I hang on to the edge of life
maybe someday inside I'll be right?