Broken promises, tattered dreams
Take over most of my memories.
Through hardships I’ve built this ancient wall
To lessen the impact from the next fall.
Locking everything away
So I can survive yet another day.
Numb to my own happiness
I pull forth everything I have so I can see my children’s bliss.
They are my life
Proud I smile even through strife.
Silently I hold my cross necklace,
And wish for him to stop being reckless.
Fifteen years I’ve waited for a big change
Devoted…Yet he stays the same.
I put myself on hold for so long
I don’t even feel to myself I belong.
Lost still I fight
Emotions I can only write.
Bottling it up till it overflows
Leaving no choice except for feelings to be shown.
Starting fresh once again
I begin to dream and mend.
Waiting for a chance to shine,
And a single moment to be just mine.