Changing Lanes

Unforeseen forces beckon me
My heart speeds up…Now I can’t breathe.
Something I fight alone
Through appearance it’s not shown.
I’ve grown tired and weary of these attacks
I want what they’ve taken back.
Precious time unraveled in chest pains
Starting down a new journey with veering lanes.
Sometimes I wish for a single dirt road
With piercing sunshine and a sign "Hardship Unload".
A new beginning as spring blooms
Strength in my foundation weakness I loose.
Anxiety dissipates and a smile has arise
Determination takes over leaving a shield on family ties.
I give more than I have daily
Knowing I am the only one who can save me.
Yearning eternally to be the greatest Mom
I leave nothing for me to hold on.
Yet somehow I reach into the core of my being,
And find another ounce of potency to help me maintain seeing…
I have enough drive to make it
So whatever the future holds I can take it.