Why must life be so complicated?
We get old, and spend our whole life compensating.
Once you get old there is nothing, but worries and pain.
I swear sometimes I’m going insane!
Almost everything I can remember from my childhood is bad,
and its just hanging around in the back of my head
beside me…there is so much unsaid.
I keep thinking with time it will all go away,
but it doesn’t it just stays with me everyday.
It’s usually worse when I’m alone
then the memories have time to roam.
I remember when I used to act like everything was okay
throughout everyday…
I was such a good actress no one knew
the pain I was going through.
Not even my best friend had a clue.
Well the situation is better than back then
the pain is worse, because I have no friends.
I have no time for a social life
between work and home it’s quite a fight.
If I was granted just one wish…It would be to be free
from the memories that continue to haunt me.
God if you’re listening up there?
Please help me find peace,
and get rid of this sad angry beast!
Before it consumes all of me,
and I become deceased.