Internal Stability

You reach to me as if I’m your final breath of air
I’m like a mirage waiting I wear.
Like the sun when you look up constantly there,
But no matter how close I seem… I’m just following.
Drawn to my black hole in the sea
Sucked into my emotions at the base is me.
Busy enticing my mind with Literature I now desire
A whole new outlook on life I’ve conspired.
As my knowledge continues to mature
I’m more content with decisions made pure.
No subsequent guessing what’s precise
Trusting my conclusion is sufficed.
Making goals probing dreams
Changes are under way inside me.
As self-centered this sounds I recognize its not
In the tangled web of providence I’m caught.
This passageway fell upon my lap effortlessly
Through working hard shortly I’ll obtain my G.E.D.
I feel as if I’m on top of the clouds
My heart is temperate and laughing aloud.
The term college I never thought I’d assert
Through goals within I’ll convert.
Never have I craved to be more or less
Perhaps this is because my life was such a mess.
I feel I can achieve without taking away
My children have stability throughout the day.
Finally I’m able to exist without guilt
Recalling the foundation from which I was built.
Working from the ground up
I love me and that’s enough.