Sometimes I cry myself to sleep,
because I have nothing in my life except defeat.
I finally climbed up that ladder,
and when I got there it just made me even sadder.
Sometimes I don’t think all this is worth it,
and that family is the most important.
I wish I could see my kids more,
but all I ever do is go to work, and say goodbye at the car door.
I kiss all three, we sign I love you,
we blow kisses, and say I’ll miss you.
They try to act tough,
but in my heart I know it’s not enough.
When I walk away I turn around
I see all their heads looking down…
For just that look in there eyes
makes me want to cry.
God help me jump out of this harsh reality!!
Is there something out there
that will permit me to be here?
I would give anything to be here with them
even if it means starting all over again.
In the mean time this is a dream for me,
and I hope one day it will be our… reality.