You were in every detail of my day
From brushing my teeth…To what I’d feel or say.
In the morning you’d motivate me
Meowing NOW at my door till I’d come and see…
You looking up,
And waiting for water in a glass cup.
At night you’d be at my side
Making my fears and loneliness run and hide.
You guarded my door and listened for the kids
If something was wrong you’d stand on me till I opened my eyelids.
If I was sick you stayed by my side
Waking me if a fever should arise.
You protected me, and in a lot of ways healed me too
Its been 3 weeks since you passed on and I miss you.
It isn’t getting an easier you were my "Baby Girl"
You seem to absorb every bad emotion from my world.
When you came home for the first time we were at a new beginning
Miracles for the first time finally… Good Karma, "We were winning".
Ironically as you left it all dissipated with you,
And the misery followed that I forgot I knew.
Another week followed another passing of someone we loved
So numb from tears I’d had enough.
Both were caressed by my hands till they were gone
Hoping I don’t sound selfish, but I feel as if I did something wrong?
Why all the pain in the time it takes to blink?
Every night I cry and emotionally into the darkness I sink.
I try and fight back by talking out loud as if your still here,
And telling your ashes I love you through tears.
And every once in awhile I’ll hear your bell
Or my bedroom door will open as if to tell…
Me you’re still here, and a calming peace comes allowing a brief smile
With your warmth filling my pain for awhile.
Its only minutes, but it’s a feeling only you could bring
I know God made you tiny angel wings.
I wish I would have known it was your last night
Never would I have left your sight.
I hope you knew how much you were loved,
And that your little smiles meant I gave back enough.