Today makes 13 years since I said I do,
and here I lay in a cold bed without you.
Something’s I guess will never change
bottled up I hide my pain.
For 9 years I took a day
or a vacation to celebrate.
I told them I’d quit if I had to work
not being by you on this day would drive me berserk.
Every year this day seems less important to you
the only way to celebrate is if there’s drinking to do.
I question if you feel the same as you did when we met?
When you was mine all day, and you let me win silly little bets.
I miss bowling late, going to the lake, and playing cards with friends.
Now our time alone consists of going to the bar, and drinking.
To me our anniversary is a major holiday.
Would you miss Christmas, Easter or Thanksgiving if it was today?
I was dealing with you going to work until I received your call
going out for one drink you say…So I mean nothing at all.
Me or a beer? Why is it so hard for you?
On today of all days the bar you choose!!!
Doesn’t it dawn on you that I’m here waiting?
When you knew you had to work were you even debating?
All I want is for someone to hold me, talk to me, and maybe run there fingers through my hair.
That must be a lot to ask because you’re never in there.
Do you care about my needs?
Or is everything now going to be about money?
Oh and when you called you said "Don’t worry I’ll give you money this weekend".
That will make this up… What the fuck were you thinking?
So here I am thinking… Why do I sit and wait?
It seems we’ll never be on the same wave length.
Do these words ever reach out at all?
Can you hear my loneliness in a call?
Do you know when something’s wrong?
How well do you know me? What’s my favorite song?
What are my favorite colors?
Or my favorite flower? There are others…
Other questions in my head
I just always take it in and leave them unsaid.
You’ve made me hit rock bottom tonight
inside I cry, but I won’t fight.
Happy Anniversary to me
the person you don’t see.
Once again inside I’m dead
just another year in a lonely bed.