I’m starting to realize there is no one to find
I didn’t have the chance to grow my own mind.
If you put me some place new
the first day I’m quietly watching everything you do.
The second day I try to fit in
testing the way to act until I win.
By day three it’s me…
everything you wanted me to be.
It’s very easy for me
to be liked by everyone I see.
I don’t want it to be that way
for once I’d like to be able to think about what I want to say.
Their is nothing in my head
it only thinks about what someone else thinks should be said.
I feel like I’m stuck in this mold…
And I can’t get out,
because I’m afraid, self-conscious, and I don’t know how to shout.
I wonder if anyone else has ever felt this way
or if I’m just out of my mind today?
Maybe now that I see these things about me
a new personality can be conceived.