Sorry I let you down
though I make no sound.
When you’re mad at me
I feel such misery.
I can’t take the silence
I feel such defiance.
Like I spoiled your love
I can’t do enough.
I always forget
there’s no time set.
I’m not used to having so much time
empty hours putting me in a bind.
No reason to watch the clock
though loosing time is a healing block.
I’m learning to be alone
without needing someone to talk to on the phone.
To fill in each second of silence myself
independence is now felt.
To feel inside I can do anything
Self Esteem is definitely a new thing.
I’ve had plenty of time to think
on an emotional brink.
Getting in touch with me
peace filling internally.
Soul and mind
now corresponding I find.
Still a small void
which will never be destroyed.
It’s a part of me
I’m now accepting.
To be different is okay
my time I have paid.
Scar’s to my heart
remain in all parts.
Still part of who I am
throughout this life span.
Spiritually I still bloom
if you haven’t felt my love you will soon.