Tonight I’m saddened over thoughts more than a decade old.
Over time they’ve made me emotionless and cold,
But only to my own needs, dreams, and desires.
I’ve given everything to the one I love and admire.
All I yearn for is his eye
To feel like I matter once in awhile.
The moments I receive are caused by others;
Friends who from a distance can see I’m lonely.
So why is it I’m noticed by everyone except him?
I feel like a leaf withering on a limb.
I desire the little moments people give the ones they love
Without someone giving them a push and a shove.
I feel completely invisible at times,
And now once again I’m writing dumb ass rhymes.
Really Though… What does he need me for?
Love should not feel like it’s a chore.
We don’t fight or argue. We just are
He is my hearts shooting star.
No one could ever take his place in my soul
Without him I just wouldn’t be whole.
So I take things as they are trying to ignore
My wish for him to give more.
I know I’m lucky to have just this,
But its the embraces that made me melt that I miss.
When I could look into those eyes, and they’d swallow me
Leaving a warmth that filled me up and no insecurities.
I’m a restless spirit who exists
Solely for others bliss.
When I want something I feel this awful guilt
So I remind myself to be thankful for what our love has built.
Finally I return to my calm state
Reasoning with myself that we are fate.
So I close my eyes hoping to dream of our far away place,
And the warmth from your hand upon my face.