I’m sitting here staring at the stars…
Wondering what God thinks of my life so far?
Wondering if I’ve been going down the wrong paths?
Or if I’m supposed to pass on through
so I can learn again to laugh.
I’ve learned a lot about myself, and there is still a lot to learn.
Sometimes I feel like there are two sides of me, and it makes me concerned.
Should I listen to my heart or listen to my head?
I think my worlds going to fall on me and leave me dead.
There’s nothing worse then silence from the one you love
no warmth from them touching you… No kisses or hugs.
Even when their there they’re so far away
You feel things are changing more each day.
Is his heart completely cold for me? Is there anything left in there?
If there is something would you please show me you care?
My heart will always belong to you no matter what we’ve done or said,
and this will never change until I’m dead.
I wish I could be home so we could be a normal family
I could spend my days with them, and keep my nights with you free.
I miss being here to tuck them in bed,
and to be able to hold you, but I’m stuck at work instead.
God if you’re listening? Please help me find away…
To be home and be a loving mother and wife everyday.
Their has got to be away? I just can’t go on like this anymore!
My body is tired, and I still see no doors.
So with this in mind I now being to pray
please help me find another way.
Please keep watch over my family and guide me
down whatever path I’m going to need.
Give me the strength to keep moving on,
and I will keep working on our families bond.
If you will just do this one thing for me
I will stay strong, and be internally happy.
Amen…